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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

so im back in singapore. meeting toufu later (: & i feel fat. and the stupid taste of orange juice and vodka's in my mouth still. i wna puke. seeing orange juice or vodka makes me wna puke. like the whole plane rides, see orange juice. buay tahan.

but being drunk is fun, only the aftermath isn't. the giddiness and stuff. but i don't remember sann calling me or pouring water on me or cleaning my puke or slapping me. neither do i remember sms-ing ky. but i remember eating at moxies and collecting my apples. the leng zai was there. he's cute and funny.

& i wna drink bellini and my mojito served by BEN! ):



THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING HUGGER.
MISS YOU ALREADY )))))):
i'll be back! (:
sigh, i didn't do it.

and i cannot believe that the show di yi bai ge xin niang has such a stupid ending. she marries the stupid ex who cheated on her and dies from lunch cancer?! like wth. get real, she should live and marry the handsome korean! ARGH.

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it's been a year. break up also break already, feel guilty for what? it's funny, i want you to be guilty yet i feel its all in the past, just let it go. i don't deny that everything was mostly your fault, it's a fact. you should feel goddamn guilty but i played a part too. i had a choice in whatever happened during our relationship. im just amazed you actually feel bad and still think of me. sann said maybe you're not that bad a guy after all. i don't know. i feel like i should hate you, but i just can't. its true that you have to face this guilt today, tomorrow or the next. so, either you make it up or move on. actually there's no choice cos nothing you do will ever make it up. & that's final. so gna feel guilty forever?

f'ck im evil. it's just that im in a dilemma too. should i tell you that there is no need for you to feel bad anymore or hold my tongue and let you continue feeling bad. i just don't want to meet you like in late april/early may and we both can't look into each other's eyes cos of this guilt thing, not to say we can't be friends no longer too.

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im gna try sleeping cos i feel wozzy. sad, and i want to drink but on a crash diet again. so off the booze for lets say a month so can't support you till next month. & should i see ryan tomorrow and give him the chocolate beaver myself? i am glad ky liked the namecard holder. and thanks to sann & eli for the icewine! :) and chivas at DFS only cost S$40. and sann, i want red ice wine! the early harvest one also can. pay you back. hope eli's better now.

& I WANT THAI MANGO SALAD.

and im rambling. bye.


nothing seems to be,
nothing tastes as sweet.

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